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Post by addyb on Aug 20, 2024 11:12:05 GMT
2nd session last night. Bigger group this time (10) half had stuff to get off their chest and the others seemed to be just their for support. Was quite an amusing end to it when someone said they'd like Barrymore to be their mentor  |
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Post by Frog on Aug 20, 2024 11:26:48 GMT
Can be easier to talk sometimes in that sort of setting. Glad you are getting some benefit from it though mate.
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Post by skalpadda on Aug 20, 2024 16:22:19 GMT
I'm okay, just want to vent-whinge a bit: Went to the pharmacy to get my prescriptions today. They were all out of one of the two meds, both brand-name and generics. None on order, the pharmacist didn't know why, and she couldn't check availability in other pharmacies. Okay, take the tram into town, visit the next pharmacy. All out, and all out in all the other pharmacies of the same branch. She can't check other branches because the medication is classed as a narcotic and it's all secret for some dumb reason. Walk to pharmacy #3, which is a different branch. All out of course, and it's apparently been out of stock for two months. There's absolutely nothing with the same active substance available in the whole country. No date for when it will be on order again. So that's great. I'll run out in two days. I only got the prescription renewed last week, so you'd think the psychiatrist would be aware, or there would be some system letting doctors know when they prescribe something that doesn't exist. Called their office but could only leave a message as it was closed for the day. Even if they sort me out with a different prescription tomorrow I don't exactly fancy experimenting with a new medication. The one I use works well and has no terrible side effects for me (which is apparently very rare).
I'll be fine I guess, I've been doing pretty well all summer. But I'm very annoyed right now, and a bit worried the next couple of weeks are going to fucking suck.
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Post by rawshark on Aug 20, 2024 17:52:36 GMT
I seem to remember having similar issues when I tried out anti-depressants. A lot of “we have half the prescription so take this now and come back a week and we’ll give you the rest - if we remember. Which we won’t.”
Makes you wonder if they’re not skimming off the top.
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Post by wunty on Aug 21, 2024 9:09:58 GMT
Funny how you think you’re doing okay and then suddenly you’re on the fucking floor again. Fuck this rollercoaster.
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Post by drhcnip on Aug 21, 2024 9:41:59 GMT
Funny how you think you’re doing okay and then suddenly you’re on the fucking floor again. Fuck this rollercoaster. Everything ok, pal? Unload if you need to. I’m expecting a massive slump once the current house move is sorted…stress levels are through the roof with it all but I think adrenaline is carrying me through at the moment. |
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Post by wunty on Aug 21, 2024 9:45:24 GMT
Yeah thank you. Just had to write something somewhere. Just feeling a bit overwhelmed and completely fucking inadequate. One day I'll address this shit instead of putting a plaster over it each time... Hope the move is going okay! I can imagine it must be pure stress.
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Post by drhcnip on Aug 21, 2024 9:59:05 GMT
It’s the solicitors that cause the fucking stress, especially their total inability to communicate anything. Currently waiting on a completion date, will be glad when the whole thing is over with.
Hits you like a brick sometimes, depression. Sometimes the triggers are obvious, sometimes it comes out of nowhere. Seek help if you need it. I get the sticking plaster analogy, I’m covered in them…🤣
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Post by wunty on Aug 21, 2024 10:16:08 GMT
Yeah. I did try last year but she was so fucking useless and neglected to get in touch with a follow up so I binned the whole idea off. My triggers are always the same things. I seem to hold steady for a bit and then just start to yo-yo like fuck again. Gets manic after a while. I bounce from one thing to the next looking for fulfilment that I know I'll get short term but once it wears off I'm looking for the next. On it goes.
Anyway. Enough about my shit. It's nothing new. I either need to accept it and put up with it, or deal with it.
Ah yes. Solicitors. I could tell a few tales.
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Post by addyb on Aug 21, 2024 13:43:29 GMT
Hope you guys are ok. It's a never ending battle with the mind.
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Post by rawshark on Aug 21, 2024 23:58:29 GMT
Just to confirm, solicitors are, in every case I’ve had to go through one, fucking useless.
If there are good ones out there, I’ll recant. But I’ve yet to experience one.
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Post by wunty on Aug 22, 2024 8:49:51 GMT
Hope you guys are ok. It's a never ending battle with the mind. You too man. Glad the group sessions are going okay. |
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Post by quadfather on Aug 22, 2024 9:33:01 GMT
Yeah. I did try last year but she was so fucking useless and neglected to get in touch with a follow up so I binned the whole idea off. My triggers are always the same things. I seem to hold steady for a bit and then just start to yo-yo like fuck again. Gets manic after a while. I bounce from one thing to the next looking for fulfilment that I know I'll get short term but once it wears off I'm looking for the next. On it goes. Anyway. Enough about my shit. It's nothing new. I either need to accept it and put up with it, or deal with it. Ah yes. Solicitors. I could tell a few tales. Is it the same thing as before then? Out of interest, is there anything specific that brings you out of it each time? What brought you out of it last time? |
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Post by wunty on Aug 22, 2024 16:56:44 GMT
Yeah same thing. Basically if I’ve enough going on I’m generally distracted enough to be on an even keel but weirdly there’s more more going on than ever and I’ve completely bottomed out. Could be exhaustion this time though. God knows.
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Post by addyb on Aug 23, 2024 13:38:53 GMT
Having a meh day today. Just one of those days were I'm feeling useless. Just ride it out and reset again tomorrow. Maybe I should find a nice chill game to play.
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Post by Blue_Mike on Aug 23, 2024 15:32:00 GMT
Having a meh day today. Just one of those days were I'm feeling useless. Just ride it out and reset again tomorrow. Maybe I should find a nice chill game to play. The fact that you acknowledged that you needed to do something and clawed your way out of bed in the first place to talk to AMC is a piece of fine effort in itself that deserves praise. |
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Post by dangerousdave on Aug 25, 2024 13:52:29 GMT
I’m learning that it’s a real bad idea to play any kind of competitive online game when you’re low. I didn’t have game rage, but I found myself spiralling to a feeling of hopelessness very quickly. I went from feeling I wasn’t playing well to reflecting very negatively and deeply about where I am in life in a couple of 3 minute rounds of Splatoon.
My partner caught it and snapped me out of it, even though this whole thing was playing out in my head, but for moment there I wasn’t myself and I’m still feeling the after effects an hour later. I guess adrenaline of any kind can really fudge with ya when you’re not in the right frame of mind.
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Post by zephro on Aug 25, 2024 14:26:24 GMT
I think I find "constructive" games way more therapeutic for want of a better term. I really enjoy things like Satisfactory when I'm down as I build a thing and an aesthetically pleasing thing. On the other hand as an insane time sink it's probably not entirely healthy.
I guess it's all mastery of a skill as painting Warhammer also helps. There's some I achieved a thing satisfaction at the end.
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Post by Lizard on Aug 25, 2024 21:32:03 GMT
I always feel bad posting here, as it's always about myself. I never contribute because I find the thread triggering.
Had a really dark moment last night. Crossed the line from 'what's the point lololol' to 'no, seriously, what is the point'. Pulled myself back pretty quickly, but I'm still scared now.
Hope everyone is going okay.
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Post by rawshark on Aug 25, 2024 21:59:34 GMT
I always feel bad posting here, as it's always about myself. I never contribute because I find the thread triggering. Had a really dark moment last night. Crossed the line from 'what's the point lololol' to 'no, seriously, what is the point'. Pulled myself back pretty quickly, but I'm still scared now. Hope everyone is going okay. no shame in that, mate. Here for you when you need it. Think quite a few of us here have been in that place before so no better place for it. |
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Post by Lizard on Aug 25, 2024 23:48:50 GMT
I always feel bad posting here, as it's always about myself. I never contribute because I find the thread triggering. Had a really dark moment last night. Crossed the line from 'what's the point lololol' to 'no, seriously, what is the point'. Pulled myself back pretty quickly, but I'm still scared now. Hope everyone is going okay. no shame in that, mate. Here for you when you need it. Think quite a few of us here have been in that place before so no better place for it. Thanks man, I'm okayish now, but scary stuff when you take a step back and think about it, what your brain is capable of doing to yourself. Barely remember anything about yesterday evening. |
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Post by Danno on Aug 26, 2024 2:40:26 GMT
I always feel bad posting here, as it's always about myself. I never contribute because I find the thread triggering. Had a really dark moment last night. Crossed the line from 'what's the point lololol' to 'no, seriously, what is the point'. Pulled myself back pretty quickly, but I'm still scared now. Hope everyone is going okay. Fuck that noise Lizzy, we're here for you and you post whatever you need to. Can PM me as well if you like. |
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Post by wunty on Aug 26, 2024 10:57:22 GMT
I always feel bad posting here, as it's always about myself. I never contribute because I find the thread triggering. Had a really dark moment last night. Crossed the line from 'what's the point lololol' to 'no, seriously, what is the point'. Pulled myself back pretty quickly, but I'm still scared now. Hope everyone is going okay. It’s not about contributing as such. More having a place to post when you feel low. The rest of us don’t have a magic solution, and one is never expected. Post and we’ll listen. That’s how it goes. Hope you’re alright man. It catches you unaware sometimes. There are more fun rollercoasters to go on than this, that’s for sure. The only thing I’ll reiterate is if your thoughts cross into that threshold and linger there, there are places you can call. So do it. |
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Post by skalpadda on Aug 28, 2024 12:38:43 GMT
I always feel bad posting here, as it's always about myself. I never contribute because I find the thread triggering. Had a really dark moment last night. Crossed the line from 'what's the point lololol' to 'no, seriously, what is the point'. Pulled myself back pretty quickly, but I'm still scared now. Hope everyone is going okay. Absolutely no shame or bother, and sometimes even just putting some words on what you feel can make it easier to deal with. Always worth it.
And to follow up my little whinge from last week, I finally got hold of some replacements for my main meds yesterday. It's a little strange, I was getting very used to how I feel and function on them, and I've occasionally wondered how much difference they really make.
Turns out a really big difference. I felt like complete and utter garbage for five days, nearly went home from work on monday (luckily only had a half day). On the one hand it's good to get some confirmation that I'm not taking pills every day for no reason, but it's also a little scary that I'm so dependent on them to be a reasonably normal human being.
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Post by Danno on Sept 3, 2024 20:32:33 GMT
Wrecked again. Spent the last two months either in the bed or on the couch with vague efforts to do some work but I can't focus on anything ever. Back on meds as of a month ago and got some help with sleep but still can't deal. I'mnot in a good way at all.
Disciplinary is Friday.
I'm so fucking useless
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Post by wunty on Sept 3, 2024 22:22:59 GMT
You are NOT useless. You are human. Tomorrow is a new day man. Put this one behind you.
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Post by quadfather on Sept 3, 2024 23:38:17 GMT
Wrecked again. Spent the last two months either in the bed or on the couch with vague efforts to do some work but I can't focus on anything ever. Back on meds as of a month ago and got some help with sleep but still can't deal. I'mnot in a good way at all. Disciplinary is Friday. I'm so fucking useless Tomorrow is a different day mate. One day at a time. |
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Post by LegendaryApe on Sept 4, 2024 5:14:35 GMT
As the others have said, today is another day Danno, and it will be a better one.
Be kind to yourself. You're a great dude.
Oh my goodness I just assumed your gender. Now I've reframe all your posts as coming from a busty Japanese lady and it has....done things.
If it helps, please feel free to picture me as a tiny, shrew-faced man with a limp and too many toes
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Post by wunty on Sept 4, 2024 9:04:34 GMT
I picture you as a wheelbarrow.
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Post by wunty on Sept 4, 2024 9:04:54 GMT
Danno How are you doing big chief
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